Some of you may have noticed my absence from the servers of late (or not) and my steam rating dropping out of the 10 range.  I've been a bit pre-occupied with this divorce  which has interfered with my gaming time.  I found out that my soon-to-be-ex-wife was screwing other guys this autumn and while I don't have anything against whores in general (they serve a purpose in the greater scheme of things), I don't want to be married to one so I filed for divorce. 

This has been a long time coming and my marriage has sucked for a while.  I actually got to the point of filing before about 6 years ago but didn't for a lot of reasons -- mostly financial since at that time I was putting 3 of my older kids through college and wouldn't have been able to do that and take the financial hit of divorce, alimony, blah, blah, blah at the same time.  Now was the right time since my obligations to my older kids were fulfilled.

I don't have anything against romance and Valentine's Day but it seems that I'm not able to sustain it with someone I've grown to dislike immensely over the last 12 years of living together.  After the dust settles and the lawyers are paid, everyone involved will be much happier with the exception of my 10 year old son.  We will split custody with him between his mother and I and I'll do my best to be his Dad and to let him know he's loved -- just as I did with my 4 older kids when their Mom and I split up 18 years ago. 

I guess that for now my Valentines day will be about letting my son know I love him and about treating his mother with as much courtesy and respect I can muster for the dirty whore.  I'm reminded by my AA sponsor that the important things are my actions and words, not my thoughts and for that I'm grateful.

I'm not writing this for advice (I pay my attorney very well for that).  I did want to let my fellow clan members know that I haven't gone away or gone away mad and that I look forward to fragging your asses again soon.