sorry about that Whut. Grieve for a little while and move on. No one deserves to be done like that.

My condolences and congratulations.
The pain will pass. Something better is coming.


Some quotes to cheer you:

"No lover, if he be of good faith, and sincere, will deny he would prefer to see his mistress dead than unfaithful." Sade, Marquis De

"Love is a fire. But whether it is going to warm your heart or burn down your house, you can never tell." Joan Crawford

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love." Neil Gaiman from: The Kindly Ones

and to put women in the proper perspective:

“Sex is interesting, but it's not totally important. I mean it's not even as important (physically) as excretion. A man can go seventy years without a piece of ass, but he can die in a week without a bowel movement.� Charles Bukowski

I am wrapping up a crazy hectic day at work that has only further confirmed my dim view of humanity. Very shortly I will spend at least one hour in my car avoiding death on the freeway, then pick up my sleeping pills which have finally been refilled, and finally arrive home. I don't know what will happen after that, girlfriend is out for the evening so probably I'll play some TF2. Inevitably one or more sleeping pill will be consumed.

that really sucks.



that right there is just fucked up.


this comes to mind:

My son was hanging from a playground set today at the public park and a little girl stepped on his finger and he fell to the ground.

---It made me think of Whuts situation.---

There where plently of other girls on the playground that would never have done such a thing to a boy. This one in particular seemed to be hunting them.

---It made me think back a bit on my life too however.---

I was dumped by a chick that I didnt know was cheating. We had been living together for 2 years and had been going out for 4 years. Owned a car tother etc etc.

I hurt for a long time after that. I'd like to say that the pain eventually DOES fade away but it may take a few orbits of the sun.

I am better off with her gone. Had I stayed with her I never would have experienced some of the things I have done in my life. She was beautiful on the outside and had some inner good qualities too, but in retrospect she had some qualities that stammered my life that were imbeded in her personality. Trust and communication seems to be what I learned and looked for in my next relationships and that approach has not failed me.

The personnal growth built out of that shitstorm of a relationship only made me focus on what was important to continually improve and explore on what it means to love another person.

There is a huge differance between "GIRLS" and "WOMEN". (and "BOYS" and "MEN")

Girls are still focused on communicating for self preservation of image and status.

Women are focused on communicating for building on the relationships development with the future desires and goals of both parties taken into account.

You sir thought you might have been in a relationship with a woman but it was, in fact, a girl.

Now sometime in the near future you will break out of this numb cocoon of pain and emerge the ugliest of butterflies mother earth has ever squeezed from her loins.

Just make sure you don't get camped right after respawn by some "GIRL". Call medic and hope for a "WOMAN".

Substances won't really help. I've tried to drink myself happy. I've also tried to smoke myself happy. While the latter was more successful, both are impermanent and ultimately insufficient. What will help is people. When you're ready. You've got our numbers (some of us, anyway). Throw up the beacon and we'll rally 'round for good time on the whutstick. No homo.

Oh, and I don't get texts anymore. So that doesn't work.

"over a woman! ... a woman! You must be insane."

Holy shit ...


It wasn't one of us was it?

There is some shit people will sink to that surprise even me